I am learning

I'm learning

...to be less stressful...

...to trust more...

...to spend more time with people who love and care about me...

...and ignore more of those people who wants you to fail in life...

...to be happier...

...to be more grateful...

&

...to love more.

<3 Kim

A date in spring

I have to write... I want to write...

to remember this very special day that had made me emotional and loved.

It was supposed to be a day where we went Solihull just to get my iphone fixed. 

However, it ended being a wonderful impromptu date with my guy.

- Ice cream. Tick

- Meal. Tick

- Sunshine. Tick

- Me dressing up. Tick.

It was so relaxing as we sat outside on the grass listening to some Jazz musics playing from a Jazz festival.

<3<3<3

Happy New Year 2013

...and thank you God for 2012!

I have achieved all three of my resolutions for 2012!

Year 2012 was wonderful and a memorable one.
It was also the year of Dragon.
It was one of the years where I have changed the most and made some important decisions in life.

And now I am looking forward to the brand new year 2013. I have made new resolutions and hence new plans, new dreams and new adventures.

Bring it on!

Kim xxx

Just a Dream

A basketballer

A guitarist

Fit and tall

Good looking and charming

Intelligent and smart

Believer of God

Loving and romantic 

&

Loving me forever. :)

Happy quotes and picture

Recently there are many people sharing quotes in a picture format on Facebook.

There are a few which I particularly like:

I showed this to my bf and I was like "Hear! Hear!" LOL!

(P/s: And yes, I have a new boyfriend! :) 

My mum was reading this when I was on the phone with her. She loves it so much and could not stop laughing! Literally made her day. 

And the last one which was shared by my eldest sister, Serene:

LOL! This somehow makes so much sense!

It makes me think twice before contacting people that no longer keep in touch with me! :)

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Before I end this, I saw this picture on Facebook and he looks 99% like a good friend of mine, Min.

A real photo of him which I have stolen from his Facebook profile. LOL!

They look so alike!!!

Planning for success

Initially I wanted to write this post but have had decided not to write it down. But when I saw my sister's post about deterioration here  http://moenafantasy.blogspot.co.uk/2012/08/deterioration.html, I have changed my mind.

so here goes..

Planning

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Few days ago, when I was studying at work, my mind was thinking of nonsense instead of my study material. I couldn't study as there were other thoughts came crashing my mind. I wished I could delete the cookies and temporary internet files from my mind and only concentrate on studying. During my study break, I went for a walk and bumped into a friend of mine, Blaise. I told him my concerns about not being able to concentrate and he gave me a piece of advice, which he received from his mentor. I find it really effective and started using it since then. 

It is quite simple and straight forward.

All you have to do is to set a target for yourself for the day. Make sure the target is realistic and achievable. For example, if you set your target to complete 20 questions for the day. Do it. You can only go to bed once you finished the 20 questions. Do not slack. If you slack, that means you will finish it late and you will sleep late. If you finish it quickly, then you can go to bed early.

I find it quite effective and realised I have done more questions than I expect myself to do in a day. Most people have high expectations on themselves and ended up setting a high target to themselves. As long you achieved at least 80% of it, it is consider a success.

So work hard, study hard. God Bless!

xoxo

Kim

Happiness

One thing I learnt is that happiness is self made. You judge your own happiness in life and through self awareness. Some people tend to be more cheery as they make more self celebrations in their thoughts.

For example, "I had a good sleep yesterday so today I will be happy for the entire day and no one can stop me from being happy". That is called self celebrate and satisfaction.

The so called "being emo" is self made too. Some people tend to make more "self emo-ness" or sarcastic sadness. You can see from how they talk and how they are being sad out of nowhere. They tend to worry about stuff every single day. For example, "I fancy a girl for 10 years and I still cannot be with her. And she's married." This is I'm-gonna-sulk-everyday-because-I-will-never-have-my-girl emotion.

In contrast, the "self celebrate/satisfied" person will be like, "It's fine that she's married, it means I'm official free to hit on other girls. Woohoo!" :)

I'm sharing this to let people know that you can decide your own happiness in life. For a healthy lifestyle, a person should have a healthy mind and be positive in life. Do what makes you happy and not making other people happy. Cherish every little things around you.


You should also avoid doing things that you will never succeed - I'm trying to refer to things like "I'm gonna marry Prince Willion" or Jessica Alba if you are a guy. You still can dream of having something you don't have if it is likely to happen if you work your ass off out of it. For example, say you want to be a supermodel. It is rather unlikely if you don't have the right figure or pretty face, but if that is your will, then work hard for it such as going on strict diet or apply for modelling job, you will never know it might work.
There is no such thing as overnight celebrity. They worked really hard for it.

My happiness
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One thing I realised that people who is successful in life tend to be cheery people - people who are always smiling as they are self satisfied and contented. I've noticed this from people I work with at work to people like Barack Obama or Tony Fernandes. Hence, I will to try to maintain being cheery in life. :)

So....

Today, I'm happy because:

-  I had a good sleep
- My room is tidy and pretty
- I lost 1 kg (yes, I am vain this way)
- I cleaned my kitchen and it's now sparkling clean
- I talked to my mum on the phone
- I bought Olympics tickets (woohoo!!!)
- I studied for a few hours
- I had a good day "chillaxing" at home

And finally....

I was given a heart shaped chocolate toppings for my skinny Cappuccino. Sweet :)

xoxo
Kim

Exam and clubbing

The truth is...

sometimes I forgot this blog exist! lol!
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Anyway...


about my previous exam, although I didn't pass all of them, but hey, I passed one exam! *jump! jump!!!* 

It was a wordy paper and I am relief I don't have to look at those wordy questions anymore!
It feels good to see my name appear on the actuarial website, because I worked really hard for it.

And for the next exam, I'm gonna work 3 times harder. Promise.
(A beloved friend of mine has actually made a study timetable for me. He is quite strict on that. I have to log the number of hours I studied each week according to plan. Say for example, if I studied 2 hours less this week, I need to treat that as lieu hours and work extra 2 hours the week after next! Bless me. I'm not complaining though as it's good to know someone wants you to pass dearly)

At noontime, my housemate Wenwen and I went to the library in city centre and studied for 3 hours. Not too bad given that it was our first time studying in this half yearly season. Our exam is at the end of sept.

To make our life more happening, Wenwen, Sharon (my another friend) and I are going clubbing tonight!!! And yes, only the three of us because we want guys' attention. (ok i am partially kidding). And yes, we just want to have some girlie fun before we turn into bookworm again.

Time to get dress up. Not driving cause I want to drink. And get drunk, hopefully. ;)

xoxo
Kim

Ways to cope with sleepiness

There are many times in your life you would want stay awake to complete something. It could be to finish your assignment, study for tomorrow's test and so on...

Depending on your creativity on how to stay awake, these are what I usually do:

1. Drink caffeine beverage
- Yes, it works but not guaranteed. Caffeine simulates your mind you make you more awake. Your brain might not be working properly however.

2. Take deep breath. Have a walk.
- Sometimes even though I was awake, I find myself starring at a blank screen. I find it quite effective to take a "cold" walk outside. What I usually do is to I empty my bin as this will make me walk outside for a bit whilst taking some fresh air to clear up my mind.

3. Do some yoga.
- This correlates with point no.2 as doing some yoga postures will make you do some deep breathing exercises. I think doing yoga is really good for your mind. It will reduce stress too! Meditate is another alternative.

4. Go to sleep.
- And yes!!! You should plan for your task properly and try avoid cramping things last minute! So if you're tired go to sleep and make sure you spend your time wisely tomorrow morning.

Kim
xxx

~Two is better than one...~

4 dreams in one night

Few weeks ago I blogged about having 4 nightmares continuously in one night. 

Given yesterday was the second amazing day I had.

I've decided to share my nightmares.

The reason I didn't share it first was because you could've had guess what was on my mind if you'd tried hard enough interpreting my dreams:

So here goes:

(Beware my dream might not make sense as it was all just a dream!!!)

I dreamt I was driving in KK, outside Luyang Restaurant highway. 

I witnessed a car crash. The car crashed to the side of the road. 

I called the ambulance but the ambulance was too slow.

There was only one driver and had no passenger. The driver's whole body was bleeding. I honestly not sure whether he was dead or not!

People nearby were trying to help and they suggested putting him on my car back seat and drive him to the hospital.

OMG!!!

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Move on to my next dream.

(Reality: I went for my company's internal interview for a permanent role mainly to secure my stay in the uk. There were about 3 people going for the interview for the position)
In the dream, I did not get the job. :(
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Then another dream...
It was September already and my visa has ran out. As I didn't get my visa sorted, I had to leave my company.
And guess what?
I went back to uni to study master in actuarial science under student visa to remain in the UK!!!
And guess what again?
I went to that uni with my ex.
(Apparently we were still together in the dream)
There were like 4 people sharing one room in the sch hall. (Bloody hell?!)
My ex and I were sharing it he same room.
I was gutted I was no longer working in the company.

When I semi woke up from my dream. My mind started to make more sense.
When I realised I was in uni and had left the company, I called my manager instantly saying I'm going back to work because I really want to go back to the company!
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Then I woke up.

Thank God it was all just a dream. :)

Ferreros and Instant noodles!

Today is a good day!

Why?

1. It was one of the hottest day of the year!

2. At lunch, I went to a cafe near work to study. It was merrier, sunny and most importantly, my cappuccino was good!

3. My friend was on study day. He came to the office to study in the meeting/study room.

I called it the high class library.

He was dressed down so he was not allowed to go to the working compound (as everyone wears working clothes)

As he arrives the office, he rang me asking me to come out to the corridor.

Feeling curious, I walked to the corridor to meet him.

He surprised me with a box of Chocolates as it is almost the end of Lent!!!

Remember my 40 days no chocolate fast?

Three weeks ago, we both made a deal. He placed one ferrero on my desk saying if I don't eat it until Lent is over, he would buy me a box of Ferreros and so he did!!!

Thank youuuuuu! You're so sweet!

I feel so bad now sometimes I ignored you trying to prevent you from teasing me!!! T.T

4. I came home early from work at 4:30a.m. Whilst studying on my bed, I fell asleep and had a fantastic 2 hours nap.

I'm feeling so refreshed now!

When I woke up and went to the kitchen, I saw a massive plastic bag full with a variety of instant noodles.

Few days ago I asked my housemate to buy about 5 packs of them and she bought like 30 packs for us with no charge.

I'm so touched! I love my housemate so muchhhhh!!!! T.T

I feel like I need to do something for her

Perhaps I should clean the kitchen, wash the dishes and tidy the lounge!

And study harddddddd!!!

Such an wonderful day for me...

(P/s: One thing I realised, I'm a girly girl. Yes, I get pleased easily by receiving gifts or getting some attention!)

tata~! :))))

Window

Some people thought I am a person who is open-minded and loves sharing my stories and life.

The truth is...

Most of the time, I don't.

I may have written many stories in the past, those are just surfaces.

I have many secrets - whether at present, past or future.

I have diversified thoughts.

I am a person who thinks a lot.

What makes me mentioning this is because recently I have been keeping my life in a more privately manner and haven't been keeping in touch with my friends and family.

Sometimes, it feels so good this way.

Because I think less. :)

xxx

Just those days...

Last night, feeling knackered, I passed out at half past eight and found myself waking at 6 in the morning. That was a looong sleep however,

I had four nightmares subsequently.

I told my close friend about the nightmares, she said I must have been a lot of stress. lol!

Then come to think of it, honestly, I was not entirely stressful,

I was just thinking too much

the room was too warm when I sleep, hence made me dizzy and think of nonsense.

At night, after my conversation with my friend, whilst I was removing my make up and cleaning my face,

I looked into the mirror,

I was like...

Why am I being so silly!

So after washing up, I closed my hand and prayed away my worries,

coincidentally with the "Arms open wide" music playing at the background from my blackberry,

Then I remembered this phrase:

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34"

Thank God! I feel so much better now! :)

What should I do

There's something I think I ought to develop:

Willingness to accept those I love for who they are

and not being demanding.

but sometimes I just wanted to be myself

and not the girl next door...

Rainy day

I'm slightly ill...

because of the rainy Sunday.

Wish I had cuddles :(

Sunday - study day

So I've changed my study habit...

I now prefer studying at work in one of the meeting rooms

The reasons are:

- Lighting is better

- Moderate temperature

- Less distraction

- Good view of the football field from second floor

- Free flow of drinks from the vending machine (yes it's free that's why I'm so fat)

- Appropriate height of the desk and chair

- Less distraction (yes, I would like to emphasis this again)

Happy Studying to self!

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P/s: The sun was sunny and the weather was warm today. :)

No Monday blues

Normally during study break, I flip open my laptop screen and scan through FB, BBC, random blogs and youtube,

and usually ended up being bored...

Is there any thing better to do during study break? -.-"

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Went to work at 8am.

In the morning, my manager wanted have a chat with me privately. *good day!*

I'm really glad to have had the opportunity to talk to my manager as he is always busy with other things.

It's always good to find out what's going on within the actuarial team. :)

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The day was still sunny as I drove home, which made me smile and cheery ^^

It felt so good to be home at 4:30p.m as I usually arrived home at 6pm.

Did a quick revision for one hour.

Going to roast chicken and cook some vege for dinner now. :)

tata~!

Soy milk

I am sooooo happy today because I just made my first ever cup of soy milk from soya beans!

*Hint* *hint* *Quick, someone.....present me with the sparkling ring already!*

Right. Jokes!

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Went to church and had mouth-watering dim sum for lunch!

Received compliment from my aunt that I've lost weight!

*Stood up...Jumped! jumped! jumped! Sat down and pretended nothing happened*

Well, given that I'm such a chocolate lover and eating chocolates has been part of my daily habit, giving up chocolates for Lent is a good idea.

A few of my colleagues were impressed by my decision as they've seen me frequently shoving chocolates to my mouth during working hours.

"Imagine Kim without her chocolates. That's so-not Kim"

It's hard, but not impossible to give up something that you really like for 40 days,

I guess it's a wise challenge for me...

Random midnight calls

- OMG! It's 3:42 now and I'm still awake and I've got work tomorrow!

What happened was:

- I went to work as usual. Didn't manage to practice darts as work was busy (shit!) and left work later than expected. Went out for Pub food cause my friend told me he has got good and bad news to tell me. Nothing interesting but I'm keeping this as a secret :)

- I finished a whole massive plate of lasagne, 2 garlic breads and salad (so fattening!)

- I went home and fell asleep at 9:30p.m.

- Whilst I woke up briefly at 2am to open the window, I saw a missed call from a Malaysia number,hence called my mum (It's 10am in Msia) to find out. She helped to call that number and apparently it was my ex's mum who called me just to keep in touch. okay. -.-"

- So I ended up chatting with my mum for 1 and half hours!!!!

- Now what?

- Given that I have slept for about (4 and half hours) I need another 2 and half hours

Righttttt It sounds silly but my tentative plan issssss

4 - 5a.m - bed time reading

5a.m. - sleep

7am - Get my lazy-ass up to go work

bless me!

p/s: See I told you my blog is so boring!